A Simplier Me

So while mowing grass today (yes again! the church this time...and quite frankly I enjoy it...who knew you could get so much thinking done while sitting on a riding lawn mower...i think I may just have to buy one to ride around riverside) and again I had the music pumping and the thoughts a flowin'! And I had the simple, yet profound, realization that I fought so long against the idea that I was a complicated person and then when I finally gave in and surrendered and begin to proudly proclaim - "yes I am complicated! is that ok?!" I suddenly realized that I am now a simple person. I mean I am still complicated and I think it is better to be than not - but my life, my wants, my desires, my taste - they are all more simple. I realized this by reflecting back on a wedding show I was watching earlier in the morning - it was this huge wedding with a gorgeous ring, and an elaborate setting and I thought to myself "wow that is a very gorgeous wedding but I would never want that." at the time it didn't strike me as odd that I would think that, but with the riding mower under my bum I realized that less than two years ago I would have had a very different reaction. Once I decided it was okay to be complicated is when I became the most simple. Maybe that only makes since if you know me - and well - I do know me (well trying to) so it makes since to me and I guess that's all who needs to make sense out of it.